I know, confusing right?

So you know that think called emotions and feelings?

Yeah and I am done with them for a while. All they do is cause me to end up hurt. Every time.

It sucks, being so scared for just about anything. Scared to get attached to someone. Hell, scared to let someone love me and scared to love someone. It fucking sucks because that's all the good feelings people have.

I don't need a man to be happy, I know I don't. But I like loving someone, and always being loved and wanted.

It doesn't freaking help that boys are so damn confusing.

You either want me or you don't. Don't settle for me because you have no one else or something stupid like that.

Be with me for feelings and happiness.


I'm tired of the lust attached to the things. Why can't someone love me for me? Not my body. It hurts more then people actually think it does.

Why can't someone hold me and we can giggle together? Be happy? Wrestle? Just be happy. No fucking confusion or anything like that. Just meet each other, talk for awhile the right way, and then get together. All these boys ask me out in a week of meeting me or talking to me and it's pointless. That is not enough time to completely grow feelings. That's bullshit.

I guess taking a break from it all is what I need to do. Find a job and focus on school.

I mean they do say, Love comes at unexpected times.


"Remember all things we wanted, now all our memories are haunted. We were always meant to say goodbye." - Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson.