If your happy and you know it clap your hands.

So, I am happy, and I do know it.

I have found someone. I can't call them mine yet, but I will be able to soon. And I have not been more excited for anything.

For everyone making a effort to be in my life, I love you. You are the people I want to be in my life forever. I don't ever want to lose you guys. I don't think I would be able to function correctly without you guys. You make me happy, make me want to live because only a few months ago, I didn't want to. But now I feel like I have the best friends and boyfriend I could ask for.

Everyone hold back your drama and problems, and just be happy. It's the best feeling in the world. Something that you should always feel.

When you are down, think of a good moment in your life, even though it may not be possible anymore. Think of all the people that are there for you. Think of the people that try their best to make you smile when they know that you are down and so much more.

Those people are your friends and if they really do want you happy and more, they will fight with you, be there for you, and be in your life until you no longer want them.

Be a friend to someone who is a friend to you.

Be a amazing girlfriend/boyfriend to someone that is to you.

Make someone in the world feel special.

Make someone in the world feel like they would be lost without you.

Make someone regret losing you in any way.

Just make the best out of your life.


Thank you to the friends I have, your the best.

"Would you sing to me, because I feel my heart beat starting to breathe, when you are away from me it's harder to breathe," - Sing to me by Before their eyes.

Some of my best friends, I love you.

Dear lord.

Yes, finally I have what I want.

I know am one of the happiest persons in the world. I have him.


I don't deserve to have him, I really don't. I'm so broken and he deserves a girl that has a full heart. But he still loves me anyway and it's amazing.

I'm happy we found each other, because we both deserve it. We both have so much in common, and so much more.

Jeez, it's weird having these feelings for me, and also being so comfortable around someone you never thought you would be able to fix things with.


Have you ever seen someone again after not seeing them for awhile and messing things up with them that it hits your heart so hard that you really do have feelings for them? That you regret doing what you did? That you want to go back in time and fix things? I do.

Have you ever been kissed and have had your heart practically beat out of your chest? I have.

Have you ever smiled so much your face hurts? I do all the time now.

Have you ever laughed so much nothing comes out? I do because of him.


I'm happy and that is all that matters right now.


Have you ever been away from someone and completely hate it? I have.


Someday, someone will walk into your life. And even though it may not be for months, years or decades, they will become the person you love dearly, that you would be willing to be with forever, marry, or whatever. That person will be the person you share your life with, and will make you feel amazing. Don't ever let them go, for anything.

I'm not saying I am going to marry this guy, for you guys thinking that. I can just see myself happy with him for a long time, so don't judge me.

I'm happy. Thank god. But the key is still lost it seems.


"Forever is a long time, but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side," I wouldn't mind by He is We.

I'm back and shining like star.

This is my first post in a long time.

I'm much better now, everything is better. I have someone that I think it will work out with.

I'm happy.

Once again I had to go through another person that broke me, and seemed to be only using me. But now, because of everything that I went through, I'm the strongest I have ever been. I'm smiling again, going somewhere almost everyday, and so much more.

I just want to thank those two boys for making me stronger.

But the key to my heart is lost.

I now have the biggest wall around myself. Even though I should take it down for this new person, I think I'm going to keep it up for awhile, because when I put it down before, I only got extremely hurt.

It feels good to know that I have this person here for me, and so much more.

I want to thank my friends, for keeping me together in the hardest time of my life.

I'm a stronger person all thanks to you guys.


Thank you all so much for being here for me, I wouldn't be here without you.


Now I know that I had to go through this, so I know better next time.

It seems that now I can make it through anything.

I won't let myself have the anxiety attacks, or let my heart get broken anymore.

This wall will always be up until the day that I say I do. Which I think is a good idea, because you never know what is going to happen.

I can make it through anything and just have to keep trying my best to be happy. Even though I have those days, we all do.


The only thing that I do not like that came out of all that is happen is that I now have anxiety pills and have to take them when I have an "episode". But I'll get better at controlling it, I already am.



"I just ran out of bandaids, I don't even know where to start. Cause you can't bandage the damage, you never really can fix a heart," - Fix a Heart by Demi Lovato