Working on it.

I'm so done crying.

So today was a good but stressful day.

I'm am going to stop being sad. Yes, I miss you. Yes, I want you back. Yes, I want you to be my friend even though that's all were gonna be. But, I'm done being sad.

I got so much out today. I threw things, screamed and punched the wall. I realized that I needed to just get over the fact that you don't love me anymore. Which is one of the hardest things I think that I will ever have to do. I really don't understand it and it hurts so much.

I will have my days where I sit and cry.

I will have my days where I am perfectly fine and happy.

But for right now I'm gonna hold all the crying in.

I got to see people that make me happy today, and actually smile and laugh. Even though at one point in time I was crying.

I keep on blaming myself. I do and can't help it.

I'm working on myself. Trying to be the happy and hyperactive person everyone loves.

This has made me stronger.

When I talk to people, I'm not gonna let them know that I am sad. I'm gonna be all fake smiles, like everyone wants.

I'm not gonna try another relationship anytime soon. I just can't and refuse too.

I want everyone to stop worrying about me as of today.

I'm gonna be fine eventaully even though right now I don't even want to try for anything.

Everytime I feel sad, I'm just going to distract myself and keep it in.

I want everything back to normal.

"Now your gone and I'm haunted. And I bet you are just fine. Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?" Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy.

Don't you hate it when life goes wrong?